Monday, 8 March 2010

Can DIGG help?

Submitting my thoughts to DIGG gave an idea. Can DIGG>COM actually help me/make me better.

A stable financial zone would allow me to get back on track... Doubts to my life that people on DIGG would care about some guy whos suffering. I guess its my own fault..

The digg effect may help; but the chances of that are slim; because no one will digg this Blog.

Is death an option out?

Heartbroken, financially ruined and digging a hole deeper than can be climbed... Is suicide a way out, or another hole to be dugg.?

Financial Issues

With over £400 minus in the bank, and still many more bills to pay. Its hard to cope; i see no way out.

My thoughts placed on this site; TO see what people say. I look for work; but no luck :(

Helping others but needing help?

I was never good at being able to tell whether i should stop, or continue helping other people.

Friends needing help; people i care about taking wrong steps in their lives and then picking up the pieces. To be honest, i wish that someone would look out for me; and take the time to talk to me about how i feel, what i want, what i feel i need.

Despite having no money; i continue to take the time to help others, to help friends in need and make sure that they are ok.

I used to be selfish, used to care about myself and what i wanted; but after seeing how that affected friends and family; i changed. I started again and try my hardest to help others.

A great believer in Karma, i believe that i have a lot of karma that is bad and that it shall continue to haunt me, my life, my thoughts.

From the start

It's starting to get late and i am still wide awake; Finding it hard to sleep, to live, to survive. Like my final thoughts whilst finishing off the ending tags on a long website project.

Music pumping through my ears; pain through my veins... my thoughts being that the music is what keeps me going. I am not sure why, depressed or stressed or maybe a disorder unknown to me; my head is constantly in a whirlwind.

These thoughts i place onto a blog; thanks to Google :)

I have always been a web kinda guy; a person who enjoys creative tasks. To be able to keep busy is what i feel keeps me from taking drastic steps.

Now, jobless and with bills mounting up, this free blog is where i place my thoughts of hurt, depression, darkness and sadness.

As sad as it may seem, that i am up all night writting my thoughts; only to be seen by no one at all.